finding the balance
This year, I started with editing and writing. That was going pretty well until this morning when I woke up…well, I didn’t really wake up, i sorta came to consciousness and realized I can’t get out of my bed without swaying and I can’t look into light and I can’t have five minutes peace from headache. The idea that I had fever was totally wrong; my temperature was running too low. After a bit of research, I concluded it’s exhaustion. Yea, right, I’ve been actually doing something for six days and now I’m exhausted, despite the fact that I sleep, on average, 9 hours a day (long nap after work, then going to sleep and waking up late).
Well, obviously I have to tweak my plans then. Editing stays, writing gets cut down to 100 words a day. It’s not much by any means, I can do it in twenty minutes (the very fact that I need twenty minutes to get 100 words down is an indicator of low batteries), and hopefully I’ll end up not skipping work like I do today and not driving myself mad with “am I going insane” ideas.
There’s very little I’ll do if I burn myself out, is there? So, well, let’s adjust to what my body says is the right amount of work.
Ouch. Gotta take care of yourself if you want to get anything else done. Rest and relax – there’s nothing wrong with only 100 new words a day (I only did 250 for a long, long time last summer). It will still be forward motion.
Saw your name on the HTRYN course boards – I decided to take it too, and am finding it very useful already.
Ieva, I hope you get lots of rest and when you’re feeling yourself again that things balance themselves well so you don’t get bogged down.
Warm wishes,
Wendy